FaithAndGasoline

Ouch

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Sat, 12 Dec 2009 22:44:00 +0000

My back went out on me last week. I have been in worst pain(hello labor!) but I am in quite a bit of pain!

If I haven't been on my couch unable to move then I've been struggling to get through a day of school.

Also, my blackberry broke! Can you believe that? I got a new one for free but what a pain in the butt.

So that is where I've been.

I haven't forgotten. I'm not going anywhere this time.

Retirement

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 01:36:00 +0000

Today was my Dad's retirement cermony. He has been in the Army for 28 years! He doesn't actually get out of the Army until February but he doesn't have to go to work anymore! My family is so proud of him and everything he has done in his career. Congrats, Dad.

I got to walk on stage with him in front of a room full of people. I'm going to have to admit I was pretty scared! I got a neat American flag pin and an Army coin.

Today was a day we won't ever forget and it was a very good day.

Broken Table

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 16:51:00 +0000

Why do things always go wrong when your parents/SO/whatever are out of town? My parents were out of town on Saturday night. They went to Nashville to watch a little hockey and be free from me and Gage.

Anyway, me and the little man had a great day alone together. We were out and about all day. We came home with McDonalds in hand to eat. I gave Gage his toy from the kids meal. It happens to be a nerf gun type of thing. One of the the little things shot under the couch.

Naturally, I bend down to find it and when I came up I put my hand on the coffee table to pull myself up. WRONG CHOICE! The coffee table broke in half. The top part went flying. I don't know how I got to my feet but the top part landed on my foot(ouch!). The McDonalds food and drinks went flying all over the beige rug. Horrible, horrible mess and a broken ANTIQUE coffee table.

My parents came home today and the first thing Gage said was "PAPA, MY MOMMY BROKE THE TABLE! PAPA, MY MOMMY BROKE THE TABLE!".

He is such a tattle tale.

Bloggers And Tiaras : Mission 3

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 12:27:00 +0000

The Bloggers and Tiaras is still going on. I am still on my way to win that title. Yeah, probably not going to win but it is still fun. For mission #3 the contestants had to show what their talent was. It could be funny or not funny. Just whatever.

I was stumped. Should I sing for all bloggy world? No, I think I covered that in the last post. Should I...yeah really I couldn't think of anything else.

So, I just went with what I know. That is hair.

So I present me for the first time on video here and not only that but me cutting Gage's hair. It is a talent because he is 2 and can't sit still. In the video though he acted like an angel for the most part. I am training him well. Unfortunately, my battery on my camera died during the haircut so you don't get to see from start to finish. It is still a pretty long video. Enjoy!

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This post is the third mission of the Bloggers and Tiaras at Momdot.com. You can help decide who wins by voting at the People's Choice Award! So get over there and vote for me if you haven't already!

Karaoke

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 05:34:00 +0000

One of my goals on my 101 in 1001 days list is to sing karaoke.

Do you ever have something that you want to do really bad but are really scared to do it? Or if the opportunity arises you can make a million excuses to get out of it? Whatever the reason may be you just don't do it. EVER.

Yeah, that is me and doing karaoke.

If anyone knows me they know that I love to sing. I will sing your ear off. In the car, on the phone, at school it doesn't matter you will usually find me singing along to something if there is music playing or sometimes there won't be. For some reason getting up and singing in front of a room full of strangers scares me to death!

There really isn't a whole to do around where I live so if I'm out and about I usually find myself somewhere where there is karaoke going on. I love listening to bad karaoke. Listening to good karaoke is alright, too. The bad stuff is the best. Anyway, I'm around it a lot it seems like. There is my opportunity. Can't do it.

One day, though, one day.

Going On Dates

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 02:41:00 +0000

I don't really have too much to say on the subject of going on dates except that...

I REALLY SUCK AT THEM!

I'm a little rusty. It might take awhile to get use to going on dates.

But in case you were all curious I have been on 3 dates(with 3 different guys. Go Me!) just in the last week or so. Some were disappointing, some were not, some just proved my point even further that men just suck.

The good thing is I'm having quite a bit of fun and I'm getting out of the house. I've lived here since February and I feel like I've been trapped inside this entire time. So even if I suck at dates and kind of rather not go on any atleast it got me to leave my comfort zone. I might retreat back to it soon. I can't promise I'll do this dating thing much longer. I did give it a shot, though.

My Christmas List

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 01:34:00 +0000

I saw Stephanie do this and decided that I must do it, too. It is a nice reminder to enjoy the little things in life especially during a holiday that can get quite crazy.

Here is my Christmas List

Make It Stop

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 06:02:00 +0000

I have been so tired lately. I just want to sleep...for days. I don't want to wake up to a loud alarm clock tomorrow or the next day. I just want to sleep peacefully for however long I want and then get up and start my day.

Being a grown up can really suck sometimes.

I'm in dire need of a lazy day. I don't need a week long vacation. I will just take one day of sleeping in.

Of course, as I'm typing this its 1am. I should probably just start going to bed earlier so I won't be so tired when that annoying alarm clocks goes off.

Bloggers And Tiaras : Mission 1

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 02:25:00 +0000

There are a lot of times where I just don't feel beautiful. I don't have anyone to come home to and hear "Hey beautiful" on the days when I don't feel that beautiful. Some days I am so busy doing other peoples hair that my own hair is messy looking. I need to lose about 15 pounds. Sometimes I'm so tired I have bags and dark circles under my eyes. I could go on and on but I'm not here to beat myself up. I'm not even complaining about it.

My life revolves around a 2 year old who wants to do nothing more than paint with every single color. It gets in my already messy hair. We play with play-doh and it never fails I have it under my fingernails. We bake cakes together and I get batter down the front of clothes every single time. When we see mud puddles there is no question about it we are going to jump in them. We make sand castles in the sandbox. I'm shaking sand off of me for hours. I dive in and play with my son. We get messy on the daily. We have a great time doing it, too.

I once read that beauty is in the heart of the beholder not in the eye of the beholder and I know that is very true. No matter how unattractive and messy I look when my son looks at me with those big blue eyes I know that he thinks I am the most beautiful person in the world.

I know that being a single mom I might not be able to give my son everything in the world. What I can give him is time, attention, and lots of love. Giving him those things I know that I will always be beautiful in his heart. I wouldn't trade it for all the manicures, pedicures, and nice clean clothes in the world.

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This post is the first mission of the Bloggers and Tiaras at Momdot.com. You can help decide who wins by voting at the People's Choice Award! So get over there and vote for me!

BooBoos need cookies

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 02:28:00 +0000

Gage: Mommmy, I have a booboo.
Me: Where, sweetie?
Gage: Down here (He is pointing to his foot)
Me: Well, let me kiss it better
Gage: I need snack to make feel better.
Me: What do you want for a snack?
Gage: I need HOT COOKIES to feel better.

He knows how to work it.

101 Goals Update

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 12:08:00 +0000

Wondering how I am doing on my 101 Goals in 1001 days? I'm still truckin' along with them. I have actually completed 18 goals. Go me!

The last one I completed was:

43. Successfully transition Gage from my bed to his

This was a goal I was stressing about and wanted it done badly. Or so I thought. Gage has been out of my room and his own bed. It really wasn't that difficult of a task for him for the most part. He still wants me to come in there when he goes to bed but I tell him that mommy doesn't go to bed when Gage does. Other than that there is no battle. He doesn't usually(although there has been a few times) that he climbs down and starts playing with his toys or comes out to where I am in the house.

The difficult part of the task actually has been...me. I have no problem putting him to bed in his own room. I mean he went to bed in my room alone most of the time, anyway. The problem for me is when it is time for me to go to bed I have to fight with myself not to go in his room and curl up next to him. I have done it a few times. I don't know. I think nights are the hardest for me. Its my thinking time which usually leads me feelin' blue. I just want to be close(not like weirdo close) to the person I know who will always love me.

But I can cross it off my list because he isn't in my bed anymore!

Bloggers And Tiaras

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 02:18:00 +0000

Momdot.com is hosting a fun little contest! It is the First Annual Bloggers and Tiara’s Blogger Pageant. It is from Nov 9th-Nov 20th. So, I decided I would jump on in there because...I want to be Super Ultimate Grand Supreme Coolest Blogger in the Universe. That is the top title. How cool is that?

The Entry
1) Name, BlogName, Twitter: My name is Meg. My blog name is Faith&Gasoline. I do not do the twitter thing. I hope that doesn't count against me!

2) Have you ever entered a pageant before? That would be a no.
3) Do you have any special talents we can look forward too? Lets see...I'm not too bad at singing.
4) Name your top 5 favorite sites to visit on the net..no, you do not get brownie points for putting momdot. facebook, bing, blogger, google
5) What is your favorite thing to do when you are not blogging? Hangin' out with my little man!
6) Whats your dream vacation? DISNEY! I've never been before. That is really the only place I have my eyes on.
7) What blogger do you look up the most too? mssinglemama because she writes about things that I can relate to and she keeps it real.
8 ) If you could be on the cover of any magazine, which would you chose and why? I would pick People because it is really the only magazine that I read.
9) Tell the truth…you want a tiara, don’t you? Duh!
10) What is your definition of blogger success? A blog that is honest real and filled with personality and insight. No matter how big or small.

I'll miss you, Dr. Pepper

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 22:39:00 +0000

Dear Dr. Pepper,

For years I have been consuming you. You have always been my go to drink. I love you, Dr. Pepper. My addiction to you has gotten to the extreme that instead of drinking something normal in the morning like milk or orange juice I have started drinking a can of your delicious beverage on my way to school. I don't know if you are aware of this, Dr. Pepper, but there are fan clubs and a group called I Love Dr. Pepper Anonymous. Yes, I find it a little weird and thankfully I'm not that retarded for you. However, since I don't want to get that way with you I am going to have to break up with you for good. I will miss you but I know this is for the best.

Love always,
Former Dr. Pepper Addict

P.S I'm not actually dumping you until I finish this last pack.

Living With My Parents

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 12:43:00 +0000

One of the greatest challenges I am facing as a single mother isn't the solo parenting, the going to school full-time, feeling like I never have enough time with my little man, and baby daddy drama. It is all hard. Don't get me wrong. The most challenging thing to date is living with my parents.

Now, I appreciate everything my parents have done and are doing for me and the little man. I'm very grateful but sometimes living with them is hard. There were no ground rules when I packed up everything and moved here. There was no talk about how long we would be staying. There was no talk about money and where I would get money from. It was just an unsaid thing that this was taken care of.

I felt welcomed and loved at the time. Over the months that feeling has faded. Now there are long drawn out fights over money, the mistakes I have apparently made in life, who is the one really raising Gage and how he is being raised. I don't want to be dependent on them it makes me feel worthless on top of everything else I'm already feeling. Let me tell you guys we have some issues.

I know that living with them things will only get more complicated and that my parent's judgment will become harder to live with. What happens when I start dating? Sex? Issues regarding Gage we haven't even touched? In some ways it is almost like being a teenager all over again but this time there is my son in the picture. I guess the question that comes across my mind the most is how much say do they get in my decisions when I'm still financially dependent on them?

This post isn't to bash them, though. They are pretty amazing people that have helped me when I needed help the most. I know this situation isn't easy for them either. We have issues that we need to work out. Hopefully, this doesn't break our relationship.

Over The Top

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 02:36:00 +0000

This little bloggy award was actually given to me by 3 different people. (Amy, Ashley, and Crista.) Thanks guys!

Here are the rules:
Use only one word, pass along to six favorite bloggers, and tell 'em you did so.
So, here we go:

1. Where is your cell phone? Bra
2. Your hair? Amazing
3. Your mother? Ditzy
4. Your father? Awesome
5. Your favorite food? Mexican
6. Your dream last night? Nothing
7. Your favorite drink? Dr.Pepper
8. Your dream/goal? happiness
9. What room are you in? living
10. Your hobby? crafting
11. Your fear? alone
12. Where do you want to be in six years? Alive
13. Where were you last night? sleeping
14. Something that you aren't? Organized
15. Muffins? blueberry
16. Wish list item? purse
17. Where did you grow up? Everywhere
18. Last thing you did? Bathtime
19. What are you wearing? Black
20. Your TV? NickJR
21. Your pets? Nothing
22. Friends? Lacking
23. Your life? Exhausting
24. Your mood? Poopy
25. Missing someone? No
26. Vehicle? Malibu
27. Something you're not wearing? Shoes
28. Your favorite store? TJMaxx
29. Your favorite color? Brown
30. When was the last time you laughed? Today
31. Last time you cried? Today
32. Your best friend?(s) Awesome
33. One place that I could go over and over? Bed
34. One person who emails you regularly? NoOne
35. Favorite place to eat? Home

Here are a few of my favorite bloggers that are "over the top":
Bonnie @ The Mamma Has Spoken
Laura @ The Stampin' Soldier
Bridgett @ Doug&Boo+2

Halloween 2009

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 14:01:00 +0000

It was 6pm on Halloween and all was quiet in my house. Wait, what?! That couldn't be right! I am not telling a lie, though. Gage was passed out cold and he would not wake up for anything.

I tried everything! I started jumping on the bed while screaming 'Candy time!'. Nothing. Didn't even move a muscle. I attempted to put on his dragon costume and go "flying". It finally woke him up because I landed loudly on the floor.

So, Gage was awake. He was not very happy, though. In fact, he was screaming his little bitty head off. I'm talking full on 2 year old trantrum. He wanted no part in getting ready to go trick or treating.

Before you start to read this next part just remember that I am his mom and I know what is best for him.

Mean mom(That side of me doesn't step out often!) came out. I held him down and forced his costume on him. He is still screaming and throwing the biggest 2 year old fit I have ever witnessed. He trying to rip the costume off. I gather up everything we need and run out the door to the car. I don't live in a neighborhood so we drove to one about 10 minutes away. He is still screaming his head off. My parents are looking at me as if I lost my mind. At this point I even start thinking about skipping Halloween but I quickly threw that thought out.

My baby was going trick or treating.

He calmed down a little by the time we made it over to the parking area. He was still in a foul mood and demanded on being carried house to house for a little bit. After awhile he was having a blast. He loved that the phrase "trick or treat" was like magic for candy. We only stayed out for a little over a hour but Gage is 2 and doesn't really need a lot of candy yet!

I'm really glad that I worked through the tantrum and took him anyway. I would have been upset(so would he)if we woke up this morning and had not gone trick or treating.

Trick Or Treating!

He had a couple pieces of candy before bed.

Happy Halloween!

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 12:20:00 +0000

Everyone have a safe Halloween! Don't do anything I wouldn't do!

Have fun! Don't eat all your kids candy(oh, I'm guilty of that)!

Me&Ambur

Glo's Halloween Birthday Party

Hippie Chicks: Peace

I was a weird kid

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 00:43:00 +0000

Do you remember when you were little what you wanted to be when you grew up?

I was going through some old things of mine and came across one of those school books where you write your information for that grade and attach a picture. It was a pretty amusing find.

Apparently, when I was in the 2nd grade I wanted to be a Rodeo Cowgirl.

So what do you think? Can I pull it off?

Sorry to my 8 year old self but I do know that is one dream that won't be coming true!

I couldn't live with hat hair 24/7.

Where Did Fall Go?

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 22:25:00 +0000

It has been really cold here. I'm talking winter coat cold. Then last week it got somewhat warmer and the leaves seemed to be brighter and falling to the ground. I wasn't wearing a winter coat. I was wearing just a light jacket. It was nice. I don't think it is going to last. Fall is going to skip completely over us.

Instead of griping over not having much of a Fall season, me and the little man went outside and played in the leaves while it was warmer. We had a lot of fun. Gage just sat down in the leaves for 20 minutes with his pumpkin friend. It was cute.

I wish Fall(like last weeks weather) would last longer but we will take what we can get.

5 Great Things About Being Single Vol. 2

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 12:10:00 +0000

One of my biggest search engine hits is "great things about being single". I wrote about 5 great things about being single back in April. If people are coming to my blog in search of finding great things about being single I thought they could use more than 5. So here is 5 more!

5 Great Things About Being Single Vol. 2

6. I have the whole bed to myself. Some people might think this is depressing but I like it. I like to sleep in the middle of the bed and take up all the room I need(although this is just wishful thinking because I have a 2 year old who calls my room 'his room' and his room the 'play room'.)

7. I can drive! I don't know why but the driving was never done by me when I wasn't single. It feels good to be in control of the wheel again.

8. I can have girly things in my place(I live with my parents so I can't do anything extreme here). When I moved in here though I went out and bought a purple bed set and a purple vase with glass purple flowers. I just went all girly in my bedroom and I like it.

9. I can listen to whatever music I feel like listening to. If I want to jam out to Miley Cyrus's Party In The USA I can without someone rolling their eyes at me that it is a stupid song.

10. I can take more time for myself(not too much because I'm busy being a mom). I'm learning a lot of new things about myself with all my alone time. I can concentrate on new hobbies, a good book etc etc.

Like I said in the last edition of great things about being single you just have to look on the positive side of things even if its hard and you feel like your life has been turned upside down.

Gone Platinum Or Crazy!

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 15:15:00 +0000

I went platinum and my hair magically grew overnight.

No, not really.

Here is my Wig!

Here are a few tips if you ever make a wig:

1. Don't make it by yourself. Have someone around that knows what they are doing. You will want to throw your manikin head out of the window.

2. Make sure you bought enough hair. I got halfway done and realized that this project was going to cost me even more. I still need more hair but I not buying anymore. My wig can continue to look like this. Apparently, it is only a blonde hair thing. Just my luck.

3. Don't try the wig on before it is dry! You might be so excited but it will get stuck to your head! Believe me I know. I did it. Take my word for it.

4. Don't wear the wig around your 2 year old son. He will start crying uncontrollably because someone took his mommmmy. Yeah, it was pretty bad.

Time To Unpack

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 04:11:00 +0000

What you don't know because I stopped blogging.

I was suppose to move last Saturday. I was going to drive me and the Gage to RI to see his grandparents. Baby Daddy was going to join us a week later after he was done with training in NM. We were going to stay a week more in RI and then the 3 of us were driving to TX to live for 10 months. I was going to start a new school in TX. Start a new beginning with Baby Daddy with our little family.

I had put my notice in at the daycare Gage is attending. I had told my school I was ready to sign my drop papers on that Thursday. I packed everything up for our adventure. I was ready to move yet again for Baby Daddy just like before.

After a few days of not hearing from Baby Daddy. I called and texted and got nothing from him. I started worrying. I knew he was ok but I knew something was wrong. I sent him one last final text that said if he was going to break my heart again I would rather him do it now then when I'm already in TX away from everything I know. He called 10 minutes later and ended us again.

So far I think I'm handling this break up well. I have had a few cries and all but I'm making it for the most part. Small things trigger me and I will just start sobbing. This morning I was getting dressed for school and realized I only had one shirt left that was clean. I had packed all my other school clothes up because I knew I only had a week left of school here in KY. I just broke down and I'm really glad Gage was still sleeping.

I really need to unpack everything but I just...can't.

I guess I was waiting on the phone call that he would say he was sorry and he just had cold feet. That phone call didn't come. In fact he hasn't called since he broke it off. Tuesday will be 2 weeks...

Random Thoughts

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 11:14:00 +0000

I really don't have much of anything to write about. So here a few random things/thoughts for you!

- I always thought being platinum blonde would be really awesome. That was until I started making this wig(i'm not finished yet. Pictures to come!) and now I realize I would look horrible with platinum blonde hair! So if possible try on wigs before you dye your hair an all over color.

- Speaking of hair, I really don't want to go to school tomorrow. I don't have school Friday,though. Yipee. I wish I could snap my fingers and already have enough hours to complete this. Come on May!

- Not that I don't have like a million purses in my closet that I never use more than once but I think my life would be a lot better right now if I could just buy a new purse. Too bad I'm super poor, huh?

- You know how people can bend over and touch their toes? Or if they are sitting down with their legs out in front of them and touch their toes? I can't do it! I've never been able to. I can remember in Elementary school being tested in P.E over this and always failed miserably on that part.

- MTV Real World: I've been watching the Real World for 10 years now! I can't believe it has been that long. I'm actually watching it right now(well, the challenge). I can't really think of another show that I have watched over the years like this one.

- Do you ever go to someones blog and just wonder more about them and their life? I have a blog I read daily and if it wasn't rude to ask I would totally ask them something that I'm itching to know.

Anyway, that is all I got! Hope you enjoyed this post of nothingness.

Keepin' That Smile

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 11:30:00 +0000

He can break my heart but he can't break me down.

Smiling since 1986.

*This is totally unrelated but I think I look so different than the picture on the "About Us" part. I went back to blonde(almost my natural color!) and I love it. Also, my peace sign earrings are about the cutest things ever.

Twice A Terror

faithandgasoline@gmail.com (Meg) — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 11:28:00 +0000

When Gage was a baby and as all babies usually do he was always up for the day before I was ready to be awake. Isn't this suppose to go on for a long time? Not for me. Mainly because I get up every morning and take a shower, airform my hair, and put make up on.

I can get all the way ready to leave the house and my little man still will not be awake. I have to go in there and wake him up. He hates it! I try to wake him up gently by whispering his name and rubbing his back. It doesn't work. That boy will not get up for the life of him. I have to turn the light on in the room. He gets so mad at me but it is seriously the only way I can get him to wake up!

Even when he wakes up he starts screaming "I want to go back bed! I want to go back bed!". I use to be able to give him a glass of milk and turn some cartoons on and he would chill out on the couch for a little bit before he has to get dressed. It doesn't work now. He doesn't want to get out of bed anymore! He has a normal bedtime for a 2 year old so I know he gets plenty of sleep. I just don't get it.

I use to do this to but I was in...middle and high school! Gage is only 2 years old. I guess that old saying about your kid being twice as horrible as the parents is true and its starting early!

To top it all when I went to pick him off from school yesterday he told me "I don't ever want to go to school*". I know he has a blast at school so I have no clue what is up with him. It is kinda funny to me but really frustrating at the same time.

*We call his daycare a school. Mommy goes to school. Gage goes to school.