Please Help, God Bless Part 1

I was driving my son to his guitar lesson and we came to a stop at a red light. On the side of the road stood a man. A man with a sign that read "Homeless Veteran Please Help God Bless". He had a knee brace on with not so nice jeans and a dirty looking t-sshirt. He was unshaven and in need of a haircut. Pretty much exactly like how you would expect to find a homeless man to look. Now there are typically two sides that people can take on this situation. How we react or don't react to the situation is our choice.

Some people don't feel sorry for the people who stand out there with a sign. Some people say that they should get a job just like everyone else. Some people think that they are lying and their signs hold no truth. Some people say they are all drunks and just bums and just trying to swindle us out of our monies.

Some people think that they are human beings just like me and you. Some people think that they might have just fallen on hard times. Some people think that standing on the corner with a sign is so very humbling. Some people think it is brave. Some people know the struggle that is life and feel so deeply for these strangers we see.

I suppose the last paragraph sums up me.

Sitting at a red light that I know will turn green at any second I hurriedly looked for money in my clutch sitting beside me. In there was nothing because I tend to use my bank card for everything. My heart kind of dropped. I wanted to help. I wanted to give this man hope in humanity. I wanted to do what I could for him.

Suddenly, I remembered that I keep spare dollars in my console area for parking garage fares and what not and low and behold there was some money. It was only $2 but it was all I had to give. I could only hope it would help the man I was about to pass it through the window to. I will never know because once I gave him the $2 the light turned green and I was back on my mission of taking my little boy to his guitar lessons.

I'm Married

I married My Handsome Man in February. While the actual day was freezing there was so much warmth in our hearts. We had our families and close friends with us to make the day even more special. My little family of 2 became 3 on this beautiful day and we all couldn't be happier.

My Word - Year 2

Last year I chose a word to shape how 2014 would be for me. While it definitely had its twists and turns the word I chose - enamored - couldn't have been more true to how the year was for me.

I have never felt so enamored with my life than in 2014. My little boy was amazingly healthy despite his diagnosis 4 years ago with a chronic illness. My LDR came to an end and we blissfully started a relationship here and not through a computer. I started going to church. I moved from the country to the city into our own little place. I got engaged to the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. I have friends and family who love me and I love them. 2014 was a great year for me and enamored was the perfect word for it.

This year I have decided to go with the word converge. I don't know if you would consider it has beautiful sounding as the word enamored but it is beautiful to me.

This will be the year that everything will come together. I'm excited about all the new beginnings and the old coming together with the new.

I know that this is the perfect word to describe 2015 for me.
I'm looking forward to it.

Rory Gilmore Book Challenge

I have always wanted to do the Rory Gilmore Book Challenge but didn't think I would ever do it. I'm not the greatest at sticking to a project. However, with many thanks to goodreads I have now read two books from the book challenge. Every month I get an email from a goodreads group for the RGBC. They have one book a month. So, it gives me plenty of time to read that book and my other books and I don't feel so overwhelmed with doing the RGBC at once. I think this is an excellent plan and I can't wait to see how many books I can get through.

2/339
Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne
The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath

Book Club

I crossed another one off the list. The big list of 101 in 1001 days. I did it. Put that check mark beside that goal. Smile...and don't forget to add $11.

I joined a book club.

We haven't had a meeting yet but I've already dived in a finished the book of the month. Now I am anxiously awaiting for the first meeting. There are a couple of things I hadn't expected to come from joining a book club but now I am exciting even more that this was a goal on my list.

I'm exciting to read books that I never would have thought about reading. I am also excited to meet a few people who share my love of books and hopefully become fast friends with them.

The first book in my book club experience is Shades Of Grey by Jasper Fforde. It has nothing to do with the popular book 50 shades of grey(but that was a fun read!). It was a really interesting book and one that I had never heard of. I think I really like the author and from what I can tell from reviews and such all of his other books are just as good.

Starting the book is like drowning in the deep end of the pool. You don't know what is happening and you start to panic. Panic that you just paid for a book that you can't even make heads or tails of. Everything is so imaginative and new. Shortly after starting everything feels normal and everything he is writing feels like you've heard your whole life. Almost like you are floating across the water now and ready to sun bathe for hours.

Sometimes life can feel that way, too.

Funny.

Happenin' Life

I'm watching the sun set. The day is almost over. It was a pretty normal day for me. I'm sitting here watching the sun set and pondering about my life. Oh, yes, it is that kind of day.

If I had to answer the question 'Is your life moving forward, backward or on hold?', I think I would have a hard time deciding between the three. I'd like to say my life is moving forward. Who doesn't want that? It some ways it definitely is. There are a lot of changes happening. Good changes. Exciting changes. Who wants their life to move backward? I don't know. Maybe moving backward doesn't have to be a bad thing all the time. Just taking a step back and changing directions. Some of the things going on in my life I never thought would happen. I've worked hard and are those things over for now? Maybe but maybe it is just a new journey starting. Is on hold bad? It sounds pretty nice. For things to just not change. To just be.

I don't know if my life is moving forward, backward, or on hold.

I do know that life is definitely happening, though.

Good, Bad, And Ugly

At least once a week(but usually more) someone makes the comment that I drive pretty far to get to work from where I live. It definitely isn't right down the street. I have to leave a little earlier and I get home a little later than most of my coworkers.

I'm okay with this.

The drive is Meagan time. The drive is thinking time. The drive is praying time. The drive is singing loudly time. The drive is just nice before the craziness of the work day starts and before the night time rituals of the house start.

Lately, I haven't been singing loudly in my drive. In fact, I sometimes don't even turn the music on. The drive has been used for much needed thinking time. I've had a lot to think about lately. My life in its current state, my future, the what if's, the could haves's, and the should have's. Most of the time even by the time my drive is over I still haven't finished what is swirling around in my head.

The good news is I get to do it all over again the next day.

Eventually, I will figure it all out.

The good, the bad, and the ugly.