Searching

I was searching in my room for something that I couldn't remember where I put it. It had been so long since the last time I used it and I'm not the most organized person, anyway. I didn't actually have to search very long. Thank God. Yes, Thank you, God. I was searching for my bible...

A sad thought passed over that it had been so long since I have seen my bible that I had no clue where it was but a happy thought washed over the sad one quickly. I needed my bible and I found it right away. There is probably something amazing in that. I needed my bible because the next morning I was heading to church.

I haven't been to church in years. I haven't used my bible in years. I haven't been the best Christian in years.

For not being a morning person, I woke up excited but nervous on Sunday morning. Excited and nervous to go to church years after not going. Excited and nervous at being at a church I had never been to before. Excited and nervous to FEEL that feeling(or not feel it) that I use to get at church. 

Excited and nervous, definitely.

I had been searching for my bible that Saturday night but I had been searching for something else much longer.

I think I found that again, too.