I have been so tired lately. I just want to sleep...for days. I don't want to wake up to a loud alarm clock tomorrow or the next day. I just want to sleep peacefully for however long I want and then get up and start my day.
Being a grown up can really suck sometimes.
I'm in dire need of a lazy day. I don't need a week long vacation. I will just take one day of sleeping in.
Of course, as I'm typing this its 1am. I should probably just start going to bed earlier so I won't be so tired when that annoying alarm clocks goes off.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Bloggers And Tiaras : Mission 1
My life revolves around a 2 year old who wants to do nothing more than paint with every single color. It gets in my already messy hair. We play with play-doh and it never fails I have it under my fingernails. We bake cakes together and I get batter down the front of clothes every single time. When we see mud puddles there is no question about it we are going to jump in them. We make sand castles in the sandbox. I'm shaking sand off of me for hours. I dive in and play with my son. We get messy on the daily. We have a great time doing it, too.
I know that being a single mom I might not be able to give my son everything in the world. What I can give him is time, attention, and lots of love. Giving him those things I know that I will always be beautiful in his heart. I wouldn't trade it for all the manicures, pedicures, and nice clean clothes in the world.
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This post is the first mission of the Bloggers and Tiaras at Momdot.com. You can help decide who wins by voting at the People's Choice Award! So get over there and vote for me!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
BooBoos need cookies
Gage: Mommmy, I have a booboo.
Me: Where, sweetie?
Gage: Down here (He is pointing to his foot)
Me: Well, let me kiss it better
Gage: I need snack to make feel better.
Me: What do you want for a snack?
Gage: I need HOT COOKIES to feel better.
He knows how to work it.
Me: Where, sweetie?
Gage: Down here (He is pointing to his foot)
Me: Well, let me kiss it better
Gage: I need snack to make feel better.
Me: What do you want for a snack?
Gage: I need HOT COOKIES to feel better.
He knows how to work it.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
101 Goals Update
Wondering how I am doing on my 101 Goals in 1001 days? I'm still truckin' along with them. I have actually completed 18 goals. Go me!
The last one I completed was:
43. Successfully transition Gage from my bed to his
This was a goal I was stressing about and wanted it done badly. Or so I thought. Gage has been out of my room and his own bed. It really wasn't that difficult of a task for him for the most part. He still wants me to come in there when he goes to bed but I tell him that mommy doesn't go to bed when Gage does. Other than that there is no battle. He doesn't usually(although there has been a few times) that he climbs down and starts playing with his toys or comes out to where I am in the house.
The difficult part of the task actually has been...me. I have no problem putting him to bed in his own room. I mean he went to bed in my room alone most of the time, anyway. The problem for me is when it is time for me to go to bed I have to fight with myself not to go in his room and curl up next to him. I have done it a few times. I don't know. I think nights are the hardest for me. Its my thinking time which usually leads me feelin' blue. I just want to be close(not like weirdo close) to the person I know who will always love me.
But I can cross it off my list because he isn't in my bed anymore!
The last one I completed was:
43. Successfully transition Gage from my bed to his
This was a goal I was stressing about and wanted it done badly. Or so I thought. Gage has been out of my room and his own bed. It really wasn't that difficult of a task for him for the most part. He still wants me to come in there when he goes to bed but I tell him that mommy doesn't go to bed when Gage does. Other than that there is no battle. He doesn't usually(although there has been a few times) that he climbs down and starts playing with his toys or comes out to where I am in the house.
The difficult part of the task actually has been...me. I have no problem putting him to bed in his own room. I mean he went to bed in my room alone most of the time, anyway. The problem for me is when it is time for me to go to bed I have to fight with myself not to go in his room and curl up next to him. I have done it a few times. I don't know. I think nights are the hardest for me. Its my thinking time which usually leads me feelin' blue. I just want to be close(not like weirdo close) to the person I know who will always love me.
But I can cross it off my list because he isn't in my bed anymore!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Bloggers And Tiaras
Momdot.com is hosting a fun little contest! It is the First Annual Bloggers and Tiara’s Blogger Pageant. It is from Nov 9th-Nov 20th. So, I decided I would jump on in there because...I want to be Super Ultimate Grand Supreme Coolest Blogger in the Universe. That is the top title. How cool is that?
The Entry
1) Name, BlogName, Twitter: My name is Meg. My blog name is Faith&Gasoline. I do not do the twitter thing. I hope that doesn't count against me!
2) Have you ever entered a pageant before? That would be a no.
3) Do you have any special talents we can look forward too? Lets see...I'm not too bad at singing.
4) Name your top 5 favorite sites to visit on the net..no, you do not get brownie points for putting momdot. facebook, bing, blogger, google
5) What is your favorite thing to do when you are not blogging? Hangin' out with my little man!
6) Whats your dream vacation? DISNEY! I've never been before. That is really the only place I have my eyes on.
7) What blogger do you look up the most too? mssinglemama because she writes about things that I can relate to and she keeps it real.
8 ) If you could be on the cover of any magazine, which would you chose and why? I would pick People because it is really the only magazine that I read.
9) Tell the truth…you want a tiara, don’t you? Duh!
10) What is your definition of blogger success? A blog that is honest real and filled with personality and insight. No matter how big or small.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
I'll miss you, Dr. Pepper
Dear Dr. Pepper,
For years I have been consuming you. You have always been my go to drink. I love you, Dr. Pepper. My addiction to you has gotten to the extreme that instead of drinking something normal in the morning like milk or orange juice I have started drinking a can of your delicious beverage on my way to school. I don't know if you are aware of this, Dr. Pepper, but there are fan clubs and a group called I Love Dr. Pepper Anonymous. Yes, I find it a little weird and thankfully I'm not that retarded for you. However, since I don't want to get that way with you I am going to have to break up with you for good. I will miss you but I know this is for the best.
Love always,
Former Dr. Pepper Addict
P.S I'm not actually dumping you until I finish this last pack.
For years I have been consuming you. You have always been my go to drink. I love you, Dr. Pepper. My addiction to you has gotten to the extreme that instead of drinking something normal in the morning like milk or orange juice I have started drinking a can of your delicious beverage on my way to school. I don't know if you are aware of this, Dr. Pepper, but there are fan clubs and a group called I Love Dr. Pepper Anonymous. Yes, I find it a little weird and thankfully I'm not that retarded for you. However, since I don't want to get that way with you I am going to have to break up with you for good. I will miss you but I know this is for the best.
Love always,
Former Dr. Pepper Addict
P.S I'm not actually dumping you until I finish this last pack.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Living With My Parents
One of the greatest challenges I am facing as a single mother isn't the solo parenting, the going to school full-time, feeling like I never have enough time with my little man, and baby daddy drama. It is all hard. Don't get me wrong. The most challenging thing to date is living with my parents.
Now, I appreciate everything my parents have done and are doing for me and the little man. I'm very grateful but sometimes living with them is hard. There were no ground rules when I packed up everything and moved here. There was no talk about how long we would be staying. There was no talk about money and where I would get money from. It was just an unsaid thing that this was taken care of.
I felt welcomed and loved at the time. Over the months that feeling has faded. Now there are long drawn out fights over money, the mistakes I have apparently made in life, who is the one really raising Gage and how he is being raised. I don't want to be dependent on them it makes me feel worthless on top of everything else I'm already feeling. Let me tell you guys we have some issues.
I know that living with them things will only get more complicated and that my parent's judgment will become harder to live with. What happens when I start dating? Sex? Issues regarding Gage we haven't even touched? In some ways it is almost like being a teenager all over again but this time there is my son in the picture. I guess the question that comes across my mind the most is how much say do they get in my decisions when I'm still financially dependent on them?
This post isn't to bash them, though. They are pretty amazing people that have helped me when I needed help the most. I know this situation isn't easy for them either. We have issues that we need to work out. Hopefully, this doesn't break our relationship.
Now, I appreciate everything my parents have done and are doing for me and the little man. I'm very grateful but sometimes living with them is hard. There were no ground rules when I packed up everything and moved here. There was no talk about how long we would be staying. There was no talk about money and where I would get money from. It was just an unsaid thing that this was taken care of.
I felt welcomed and loved at the time. Over the months that feeling has faded. Now there are long drawn out fights over money, the mistakes I have apparently made in life, who is the one really raising Gage and how he is being raised. I don't want to be dependent on them it makes me feel worthless on top of everything else I'm already feeling. Let me tell you guys we have some issues.
I know that living with them things will only get more complicated and that my parent's judgment will become harder to live with. What happens when I start dating? Sex? Issues regarding Gage we haven't even touched? In some ways it is almost like being a teenager all over again but this time there is my son in the picture. I guess the question that comes across my mind the most is how much say do they get in my decisions when I'm still financially dependent on them?
This post isn't to bash them, though. They are pretty amazing people that have helped me when I needed help the most. I know this situation isn't easy for them either. We have issues that we need to work out. Hopefully, this doesn't break our relationship.
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